Enigma

I am believing that God made me to be a beautiful enigma. An Enigma is a riddle generally expressed in metaphorical or allegorical language that requires ingenuity and careful thinking for its solution. I feel this describes me. I coined this phrase while in a leadership interview last week. Someone asked me how do I think God sees me. I personally don't like questions like these because I am not God and I feel trying to answer for him is being almost sacreligious. But, I knew the person was just doing their job. The word enigma came to mind.

I like using the word enigma to describe me because I really can't describe me. And I think that's how God wanted it. A part of me feels like I am as complicated as my old diffie class. And then I guess I'm as simple as koolaide. I feel my personal enigma is finding my purpose and fulfilling it.

I have found a beautiful man who is just as enigmatic as I am. His name is Chris. He's a 30 year old christadelphian blacksmith apprentice with Asperger Syndrome. He's from the UK. We just made our relationship official and public yesterday. I look forward to growing with him. I don't know if God wants us married or not, but I know God can do some pretty awesome things. I am doing my best to keep my head out of the clouds on this. It's pretty hard to think when one's brain is clouded with lovesickness.

Did I mention I'm an insomniac and a chronic procrastinator? Maybe I should take a blue chip for that.